maybe i should write some stuff. or something idk.

I know zero about HS, or I would. Now I’m tempted to get into it, thanks. :-P

Haha, its okay. i still need my hetalia fans too!!! :3 its just a weird porn thingy im not sure if like or creepy or what idek jfsdhsvdjhlaslk xD

its GamTav, PWP, Xeno and pretty much what is this i dont even. help???

folks who have read my hetalia stuff already are preffered. :3

hello followers. *hugs* i hope you are all good. ^^ anyway, i have a few important announcements i would like to make, and i would appreciate a moment of attention please. 

ONE
I AM SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES AND NEW FICS RECENTLY, but i am afraid that lately i have been feeling under a lot of pressure from school and life in general and havent had much time to write. this is an excuse im sure everyone has heard before, HOWEVER, i would like to make it clear this is not the sole reason for my lazy updates. :/ truth is, im feeling a lot of preassure from myself to update more and regularly at a high quality, and this is accountable for a lot of my bad timing and general decline in story quality. I would just like to point out a few things to you all. 

• I am a very easily distracted person. when i write fics, i usually have three word documents open at a time, and switch between them as i go along and add a bit or prose to whichever story i feel most in the mood for at the time.
• i usually have seven or eight fics on the go at a time, rotating through them bit by bit, plus another twenty or so plot bunnies i am yet to actually start on. 
• It takes me between 45 minuites to an hour to type ONE microsoft word page in times new roman font, size eight. this translates to approximately three pages of size twelve text.
• most of my stories are around seven TNR size 8 pages long. PWPs will be maybe three or four depending. Chapters belonging to fics like GV or IGYUMS will be between three and four pages. 
• this haphazard writing process, plus the slow speed at which i write, plus the sheer size of the shit i put out, means i invest serious amount of free time into writing fanfiction. I am aware of this. but you know what? i dont regret it at all because…
• Above all else, fanfiction is my HOBBY. i do it because it makes me happy, and is a good way to explore my own imagination and share a little bit of my world with my friends and fandom. I dont care, if people think that its ‘pathetic’ to have it as a hobby. im happy to be contributing to the community i call myself a part of, and an happy to be making their fandom experience a little bit more imaginative and enjoyable (i hope)

unfortunately, recently, with the external preassures plus my own personal preassure to satisfy the people who read my stuff and finish more stories to make deadlines and updates, has turned my hobby into a bit of a chore for me, and this makes me really sad. :( im sorry that it has come to this stage, but i think that perhaps it is time for me to slow down a bit and go back to writing how i used to. that is, because i enjoy it, not because i need to update things, or do requests, or anything like that. 

that being said, i will of course keep updating and writing new pieces, but they will come when they come, and that may be anywhere between a day or two apart to almost three months apart. please be patient and understanding. i dont want writing to become like all my past hobbies, most of which i cannot even tolerate thinking about anymore because of the way they gradually became hard, souless work i didnt mean.

TWO
 I have recently completed two one-shots, one of which was a request for http://www.fanfiction.net/u/967634/LovexAndxEdelweiss i got AGES ago and need to beta, the other was a HKxKorea fic as voted by y’all a while back. i will post thise soon i hope. im not sure about the HKxKorea one though. jhsdhjvjhas… ive been so insecure about all my writing lately. its very upsetting. :I dat preassure…

THREE
As if i didnt have enough on my plate, i write for homestuck now too. xD oh dear woe is me… anyway, because im new to this fandom, and have never written anything for the charactes before, i would love forever anyone who has been in the fandom for a long time and knows a lot about the characters wo wahts to be be my guinea pig and  READ SOME OF MY HOMESTUCK FICS BEFORE I POST THEM, to let me know if im on the right track with characters and stuff. :3 i need advice, basically. help would be deeply loved. :) (my first story is GamKat, if that helps?)

finally, to the anon who sent me (several) message(s) a few days a go… you said you sent the message in four pieces for some reason? i am sorry, i didnt quite understand what you were saying. also, only three of the messages went through. ^^ if you would like to message me again that would be great. <3

xxo Bex

but DaveJohn.

 I davejohn now. I have many feels. too many feels. 

Why so many feels?????? D: